I may need to compile

I may need to just take aday and find all the links where my music and videos have been hijacked to foreigne sitre I've never heard of. it knid of makes me feel a lil' famouse. just a little but famous is useless you can still die and have your corpse not found for two weeks after your dog has decied to eat your dead body cuz you don't feed him anymore cuz you died. I found a website devoted entiredly to dead black celebrities that nobody cared had died. Did you know that guy from Moesha was dead? or the kid that played Rudy;s boyfirend on the Cosby show? http://panachereport.com/channels/old_school_update/BlkCelebsDied.htm there were tons of people that I recognised like wow, you died on 2002? really? damn. nobody seemed to care. So being famous is wack. you better make some friends and make them love you, nhate! It's quality not quantity. fuck speeling things correctly. hey I had some xanax and felt like I may have a anxiety problem...cause it made me feel normal, not relaxed even really, just regular like I used to feel when I was younger. Also I ate alot of pizza and found out that there is nobody else like me around me and that makes me sad. People just want to sedate themselves to forget their life instead of work on making a new one daily. I need more creative people who want to make things for themselves not be fans of someone else. People with causes. People who lack fear... of anything.... I like people who are proactive who wanna go out an seize the day and have something to show for it afterwards. but I am soo alone. Nobody gets me, and I don't get them. My fear saves the world?